fucking youtube.

i have so many vids i need to upload and im kickingm yself in the fucking ass because i keep trying to get inspired, and then i get distracted… fucking energy drinks dont really help as well, but im not sure i am particularly comfortable with this fucked up schedule for writing blogs. why? because it makes me feel that ive betrayed you, my readers, for one. i cant get a steady bead on a particular story because im not on on a daily basis or first thing in the morning. it really pisses me off that ive lost that much control over my own activities, that no matter what the fuck i try to do, nothing really pans out! have i lost the drive i once had? or is it just a different shift in the year thats causing me this much idiocy?

not editing this… too lazy at this point.

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