lately ive been feeling like i never actually get anything done because of this addiction. my friend blake showed me an article about how game companies are making their games more addicting to gamers. and personally, it kinda shut him off the whole thing. it got a major monkey off his back! so why am i afflicted with this kind of mental disease. and you are pretty much kidding yourself if you dont think it is. addiction to games, no, any addiction in itself is a disease. but somehow its got a hold of me like nothing else. you see, i have a ps2 at home, so the game i have are mediocre at best, while at work, theres a 360 with black ops on it, with really great gameplay value. but im afraid that if i let my motivation for coming here be just for games, instead of doing actual work, ill be no better than an alcholoic.

its frustrating for me, i know that game designers areo nly doing their jobs to manufacture these epic stories in video game format, and that the addiction is only the fault of the user who lets their habit to whatever it is spiral out of control. but somewhere along the line, its has to come to a head. this isnt easy for me at all to talk about because for the longest time, i loved playing video games. heres hoping for the future, you know? is there anyone out there who has the same problem?

now for some black ops.